It's been ages since I've written anything meaningful. The reason I'm starting now is to have some sort of accountability to myself and also keep track of my plans and goals. I'm usually reserved and it's not going to change anytime soon. I've accepted that fact and so should you. I'm going to talk a little about myself today and perhaps someday will have a decent bio penned down. So on this day, the second weekend of this year, I decided to kick-start my blog and the name might come across a little goofy. I just wanted it to reflect what my main goal for this year was. To get into good physical shape and also better myself in intellectual, emotional and spiritual departments. Sometime in December, 2010 I put a status on Facebook that I wanted to write but I didn't want my English teachers or any females that I've been romantically involved with to read this blog. To my teachers I want to say, "I'm sorry for disappointing you after all the time you invested in me" and ironically that's exactly what I have to say to the lovely woman I was involved with. I did my best but somehow it wasn't good enough. I can't change the past or undo any of the hurt I've caused. I learned a lot about myself and am happy that I am what I am now. I'm still the same I was before but at the same time I'm so much better in so many ways. Thank you for teaching me some very important lessons about life. I really mean it. It wasn't easy the last couple of years but now I know what God intended, so I'm going to enjoy this new found "freedom" and wait for Him to tell me what to look for. All I know is that He always gives us the best.
So, I'm a work in progress so don't think I got myself all figured out. So far I've realized that I'm diligent and patient with most things, but I do experience lapses of A.D.D. when things get boring or when things don't workout in my time-lines. I'm working on being selfless but it's been a challenge for the last couple of years. You'll see me throw fits of rage and go ballistic but it's pretty much a defense mechanism(plus frustration) more than anything else. So if I ever tick you off, instead of blaming me, just go and do soul-searching yourself....but don't worry, I'm usually the first to ask for forgiveness.
I grew up in India and I live in the United States now. I serve in the United States Army and it's a whole another story as to why I enlisted. One reason that I WILL tell you right away is that, I believe this a small world and we all need each other to make sure it's safe for all of us now and for the coming generations ahead. I'm proud to be doing what I'm doing now and I hope to live long enough to achieve the goals that I've set for myself. I hope to see more than half the world and add at least 4 other languages to my quad-lingual skill-set. I'm trained to work on an awesome Attack Helicopter and I can't wait to get my hands on the "real deal" soon.
I love my family and friends. Though I can be skimpy when it comes saying "I love you", I really do. It's a man thing I guess....atleast that's my excuse. I know that over-dozing on "I love you" is a great way to make a woman feel special, but I'm going to wait on her to do all the work this time. (I can see the cringing expressions on my female friends' faces....somehow I can't suppress this impish smile when I typed this.) Usually I give WHATEVER I have but sometimes it feels good to receive too. I'm single...atleast that's what I like to think that I am. I was waiting for a few things to workout in the Love Department and was about to go ahead with my plans but I think God has other plans for me. Remember what I said about "working on being selfless" part, I think God wants me to work on being more patient AND selfless. I've been looking and waiting for answers and He just gave me part of the answer in Nov/Dec, 2010. I'm not in a rush to meet women right now as I have my reasons. If you are The One, it'll happen. Trust me, it will.
I've made many mistakes in my life and am trying not to repeat most of them. God has been gracious to me, protected me from evil and has always been forgiving. I just desire not to hurt Him with my thoughts, desires and actions and have been battling on all those fronts. Just a small sacrifice on my part and it compares nothing when I think of His sacrifice on The Cross for me.
So, dear children, I will make a decent attempt to keep this thing going for as long as I can. I'm not great with aesthetic designs so please bear with me till I find a decent background that is easy on the eyes. Right now, I have some laundry that needs attending to and get ready for the service at the Chapel in the morning. I'm looking forward to an awesome week ahead !
